my me/cfs suffering

This is my first time ever making a blog so if your reading it then thank you and sorry for the inexperienced touch. But in my defence im really doing it for myself to learn ok.

SO with that out of the way i can mention that my disease has really taken over my life for the past two years or more now and it has left me depressed mostly but i do get some little breaks from my depression now and again as otherwise i would not know i was depressed at all. It's a cruel world we live in and somewhere not far from me im sure someone else is suffering a worse faith than myself.

I do suffer from many other symptoms but i have not mentioned them because im just testing if you want to know them just google ME or CFS (chronic fatigue syndrome)suffering anyway thanks again for reading good luck

I have been diagnosed with M.E./C.F.S. by a VERY competent Doctor and her also competent partner.
This is my update as i'm in a very very bad place now cause i have symptoms so bad that i cant do anything at all i tried to take a deep breath and suck it up with regards to my illness but it has had an adverse affect.

Now what i mean is, I went on a holiday and during that holiday i went swimming twice and i also kicked a ball back and forth with my children the other thing was that i drove down and back to kerry it's a four hour drive at best, And this has left me so symptomatic that i would never do it again unless i am 100% sure i've been cured.

I am feeling so sad and let down by my own body that i cant even enjoy some activity with my children and the worse part of it all is that i have been told that i'm not disabled by a doctor(who works for the state dismissing genuine dissabillity cases) She never asked my symptoms or anything that i felt, It was a total farce so i have appealed the decision against me and i recieved a letter this morning stating that an executive officer has been asked by the chief of appeals officer to acknowledge reciept of my notice of appeal against the disallowance of my disabillity allowance claim.

So now i will be assesed again and im going to do my best but i will post exactly what has happened and im really apprehensive about this whole procedure because the last time was a pure waste of time altogether for all involved SORRY i take that back the examiner got paid as did the nurse sitting in the corner, Their time wasn't wasted at all they do this for a living and get paid very well to refuse genuine applications and make it hard for all involved.

Also i recieved on the letter at the end a part stating i could claim the expenses to and from the examiners address but i can not claim taxi fair even though it is there and is claimable for some people? Anyway i can't take the bus as i get very dizzy and weak also if i have to walk to the bus stop and then to the exam building i pay for that with days of exuastion and bed rest I DO NOT THINK THATS FAIR DO YOU ??? well that is it for me at the moment so ill let you know what has happened on the examination every little detail.

      Since the holiday i have got so bad so quick to the point that i cant stay awake and my body is continously exausted and i'm in pain throughout my whole body, I also suffer from depression as a result of the effects of M.E. i get tunnel vision and migraine headaches All the joints in my legs and arms ache so bad it can bring tears to my eyes, i get sweats very bad while just sitting there and sometimes i take a huge deep breath like a gasping breath for absolutely no reason and that instantly takes any energy i've got and drains it, i suppose it's like a sped up panic attack or something like that? Anyway i feel helpless all the time im sick of being sick.